Experiencing Memory Gaps and Altered Behavior: Possible DID?

Hi. So quick backstory uh I’m officially diagnosed with BPD but not DID but I’m starting to have stronger evidence it might in fact be the latter, or possibly both? Not sure. So i just want y’all’s thoughts on the latest odd behavior that I’m now realizing I’ve done all my life, but also suspecting why as well…. Anywho….. I’ve always avoided scrolling very far back in my own posts on ANY type of social media site, including this one. Never really noticed. Well, I’ve been a bit extra introspective as of late, and noticed sometimes old comments i made that come across my feed for whatever reason make me deeply uncomfortable, for two reasons. 1: i simply have no memory of making them at all and 2: i would never under any circumstances ever ever even say that thing. Well today it happened again, except this time said disturbing comment was on MY old post…. Which was equally bothersome. Something clicked in my head and, risking worse a bit of discomfort, scrolled back in my own posts pretty far. Some of them i remembered. Some i did not. And a lot of the ‘not’ ones were things i would never say. I realized without looking (thereby avoiding the most extreme discomfort yet) that i do the same thing (not scrolling back) in the most extreme form with messages. Yikes. Imo there are vastly compounding issues as to why this is problematic. Please think this thru before replying…. I don’t want to list all the symptoms I’ve come up with that fit the DID requirements perfectly or this post would be 5x this long haha. Also pardon me for not describing better… there’s still a lot of terminology i don’t know. TL;DR: Please tell me if this is something a DID individual would experience. TIA 💜

Seeking Reassurance About Going Inpatient at a Mental Health Facility

I need some reassurance about going inpatient at a mental health facility.. I heard they’ve changed a lot in the way they operate, and that it’s a lot better now. But idk. It’s still just so scary. I’m not diagnosed with a lot of the issues I know I deal with, and I’m hoping that admitting myself will help with that??? Idk how it works. Any positive experiences with going inpatient to help me with my anxious thoughts over this? I just wanna know how this works and what happens while you’re there. Thank you for reading 💕

Coping with Mental Health Issues: Strategies and Support

How do you cope with Mental Health issues that you are experiencing?

Differentiating BPD and Bipolar Disorder: Can I Have Both?

How do you differentiate between BPD and Bipolar Disorder? I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 but I've also done research on BPD and it sounds very similar to what I experience as well, but a lot of it sounds very closely related to bipolar disorder. So, would I be able to tell if I had both? Is it also possible I could have been misdiagnosed or that I could have symptoms of both? Thank you in advance!

Decreased Motor Skills: ASD and Burnout

Why have my motor skills decreased so much? I've noticed the decreased motor skills range from fine motor skills (dropping things more often) to larger ones (struggling to walk.) I can only guess its related to my ASD, as I'm struggling with burnout. Any Ideas?

Seeking Feedback on Emotional Intensity and Possible BPD

Hi, I need some feedback. Ever since I was a kid, my emotions have been a lot deeper and more intense than others. I’ve never realized that until now. It’s beyond just being sensitive. I’ve been in therapy for about 10 years now, and have been diagnosed with severe anxiety/panic disorder. I have a hard time making friends as I feel like I can’t relate to anyone, and that I’m too much for people. I’m wondering if BPD could possibly be playing a role? Pretty lost so I would appreciate the feedback.

Seeking Advice for Dealing with BPD and Finding the Right Therapist

So a few years ago I was diagnosed with bpd I don't take any medication, my moods change so quickly and it can be triggered easily, I recently had to get rid of someone from my life because they made my life hell and I noticed now that they aren't here I feel more like me, but is bpd all known for anger and rage, but im not like that, I do get thoughts of is the world better without me here and all that, I'm trying to get a therapist but the place I wanna go to is a phone call only place cause of covid but I'd much prefer an in person, I would also like to mention I do lie alot and I get away with it a few years ago i did have a therapist for 2 years and i kept things away such as my ods and all that they let me go cause they said i was doing better but i wasnt when they called to tell me they didnt need to see me i cried cause i knew i had lied to them about how i was feeling but I feel I'm at a point that I need help, can I please have some advice

Questioning Bipolar Diagnosis: Seeking Closure and Recommendations

OK so I've been diagnosed with BPD, bipolar, and most recently ADHD, But recently I've been questioning my bipolar diagnosis simply because now I realize that my anger isn't bipolar at all.. When I do get angry it's known exactly why I'm angry and not out of the blue like bipolar is. Sure I had a manic episode about 7 years ago, but now I understand that even neurotypicals can have a manic episode. Also, I don't believe my mood swings are bipolar. The only med I'm on is strattera which does help. Anyways, Has anyone experienced this? what helped you to get closure on this? what would you recommend that I do? Thanks in advance.

Exploring the Power of Vivid Dreams for Mental Health Improvement

does anyone here get really vivid dreams that expose the psyche in a raw form where you’re able to work on your mental health? i’m on a combination of meds. venlafaxin xr, gabapentin, prazosin, quetiapine, and trazadon.

Exploring the Power of Vivid Dreams for Mental Health Improvement

does anyone here get really vivid dreams that expose the psyche in a raw form where you’re able to work on your mental health? i’m on a combination of meds. venlafaxin xr, gabapentin, prazosin, quetiapine, and trazadon.

Nausea and Dizziness with BPD/CPTSD: Anyone Else?

hay all Just a big question I've been diagnosed with BPD or CPTSD some people call it and I've been getting very nauseous and dizzy has anyone else get these symptoms or is it just me

Struggling to Feel Positive Emotions

does anyone randomly just feel like they can’t feel positive emotions for a certain period of time? for example my menstrual cycle is coming up soon and it’s making me very emotional but worse than usual, i have a partner and i know i love him but it feels like i can’t feel as close to him as i usually do or i can’t feel as good as i usually do when nothing has changed. it worries me because i do love him i just don’t get why i can’t feel it, then i get put on edge and start thinking he will leave which makes me feel like i should just end the relationship and run before that can happen. it’s all so confusing to me and i just feel alone, does anyone else experience something similar?

Debilitating Anxiety: Seeking Quick Fixes

I've recently come to the realization that I suffer from crippling, panic attack, fully debilitating anxiety. It's ramped up over the past six months, but I've just recently been in a place in life where I can identify it as a standalone problem rather than a situational reaction. I don't currently have insurance, won't be able to get it for at least another month. Any magic quick fixes or tools for this? I can't cope with this level of anxiety and being completely out of control of it

Feeling Empty: How Do I Help Myself?

I feel this really weird version of sadness, that I don't quite know how to explain. Its this very empty feeling, and I can feel my mind and body need something but I can't pin down what I need as it isn't a physical need, but an emotional one. I will start crying but its more me sitting in silence with tears running down my face rather than a more active way of crying. I don't know what this is and I don't know how to help it. It usually comes out at night. I'ts making me extremely uncomfortable but I have no idea how to help myself, this is one of the rare times I truly am clueless. I needed to get this out of my mind.

Struggling to Quit Smoking: Seeking Advice

Does anyone have any advice on how to quit smoking? I've tried patches, gum, hypnosis, and I'm on Wellbutrin. Nothing seems to work for me. When I don't smoke, my mental health issues get so much worse.

BPD Diagnosis Doesn't Add Up: Fear of Abandonment?

I've been diagnosed with BPD twice but some things don't add up - like the "fear of abandonment" must show up differently for me. Instead of fear, instead of begging people to stay or making a scene, I get cold, distant, and it's more like a "I've accepted you're definitely gonna leave eventually so, whatever." Of course this is in illogical situations and I don't WANT people to leave/ignore me, cuz if they do, I explode but not necessarily with "PLEASE STAY". I've found comfort in being alone since childhood so, maybe that's why?

Looking for insight on mirtazapine and venlafaxine cocktail

anybody have any insight on this medication cocktail of mirtazapine and venlafaxine, and if they were beneficial for you

What do you think about clonazepam?

Opinions on clonazepam?

Ketamine Use: Experiences and Advice?

Anyone else try ketamine

Misdiagnosed with BPD? Seeking Advice

Mostly a rant but if anyone has advice that would be good. Thank you!! TLDR at the end I think I’m misdiagnosed. Officially I’m diagnosed with BPD, but I don’t think I have it. Last year, I admitted myself to the psych ward because I couldn’t keep myself safe and the second time I was also psychotic (both 2021, once in April and once in August I think) and they diagnosed me BPD there. I have episodes. Strong emotions become overwhelming and I lash out at people, but I’ve gotten really good at holding back and not saying something that’s mean. I realize when I’m having paranoid thoughts. I have a fp, my partner, and I split sometimes. I also have a lot of derealization. Almost half the time I’m sure that no one is real but me (of course i don’t tell anyone and I don’t do anything about it because I know it’s just a symptom). I don’t have a sense of self at all. I also am diagnosed bipolar. I don’t get mania a lot, like maybe once or twice a year. But again, strong emotions and cycles of depression. I was on medication. Cymbalta. In 2019- a year before i started getting bpd episodes and I went through a lot of trauma in 2020. When I went to the ward for sh in 2021, they gave me latuda but it was $800 with insurance. I feel like the two conflicted and made me kind of delirious. I didn’t start seeing and hearing things until that point. My psychiatrist also gave me Adhd medication at some point but with the other meds it made me really numb so I stopped after a week. The therapist I saw for like a month told me that I’m unusually aware of my emotions and how my disorders effect me. I think I might have autism, adhd, and something relating to compulsions. Autism runs in the family and I’ve always had trouble with eye contact, overstimulation, sensory issues and general socializing stuff. I also kind of carry myself weirdly. If that counts. I know adhd has a lot of symptoms that correspond to autism. Like I can’t tell the difference when I fidget or stim. I don’t think I have ocd. But I have a lot of compulsions. For example- when I was like 6-7 I would wash my hands and then take a cup and pour water on the sink nozzle so I didn’t get those germs on me again. It happened every time I washed my hands for months until my mom made jokes about me becoming a germaphobe so I worked very hard to stop and make sure I didn’t “become a germaphobe”. If I don’t actively work at it, I fall into cycles of stuff like that. TLDR: When I was in the mental h*spital I was diagnosed Bpd, Bipolar with psychotic features, and anxiety. I think I have Bipolar, Adhd, Autism, and something to do with compulsions.