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I'm sorry this is kind of a vent, but I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm just so tired of feeling like this, feeling afraid of my own family, feeling so hurt all the time. I can't do this anymore. I feel like if I stay one second in this house I'm going to break down. I want to leave, I want to get out of here and book a flight to somewhere far away and just end it. I can't stay here, I can't keep feeling afraid every time my mom even is in the same house as me. my therapist says I'm "hypervigilant" and it's really tiring and I don't want to do this anymore. even if I get out of this house, I just don't want to keep going with this life. I felt like this when I was 7, I feel like this now. it's like I'm a dead person walking, someone who shouldn't be here but still somehow is. I cant sh because its getting too hot for hoodies and stuff, and I don't want to have to deal with my mom being nice to me and making me feel guilty for not liking her just for her to hurt me again. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm just so desperate
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hey, my mom is the same way and my teen years felt like hell. i got yelled at all the time for being hypervigilant like that. my mom has undiagnosed mental illness and i see a lot of "quiet borderline" traits in her. i'm just now being able to come to terms with how harmful living with my parents was for me. my best advice is to get the hell out of there whenever you can. even if you can't move out yet, try going out somewhere - sitting in a library, starbucks, at a friend's house, or even just going on walks outside. you know your situation best. if you start to feel a little better when you're away from her for a bit, imagine how much better it could feel if you're living away from her full time! it may take time but it is possible, and you will be able to heal from this with therapy and independence
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@anemone thank you. my therapist doesn't want to jump the gun and refer me to get diagnosed with some things because it could just be due to living in an unstable household. I'm hoping moving out would make things like this easier!
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