Feeling Unsafe at Home and Everywhere Else

tw? venting and abuse my mom busted in my room today yelling after work. she told me i’m causing her grief. she threatened to hurt me so i would end up in foster care instead of living with her (i’m a teenager so i have a few years) it’s always been my dad threatening me, never my mom. i texted my therapist but i don’t know how to talk to her because i hate crying in front of people and i’m a complete mess right now. how do i continue living in such an unsafe world? i don’t feel safe anywhere. i fear for my life at home and school. pedophiles are at my work so i fear for my safety and body. how can i keep going when there’s nowhere i can go to feel truly safe? i still have a good long 2-3 years before college if i can even afford to leave the house. please any advice or anyone to tell me i’m not alone