Struggling with BPD and Resentment in My Relationship

I totally understand this and sometimes I question am I overreacting or is it a problem. I struggle with not trusting my partner because of when we 1st got together he was still messaging other women and has struggled with a porn addiction which has left me feeling like he would rather be somewhere else with somebody else.. Even though we are so in love and he is working on it and I haven't found him talking to anyone else in months. For me it is like the events are really happening still in this moment even though it is in the past. I would honestly say that having a conversation about how it makes you feel would be worthwhile. I'll. I truly believe that nobody can be friends with an EX and there is no reason they should want to be talking to them.

You're not an insane awful dramatic person... You're passionate and that is beautiful. Harness that power lol

I'm sorry you're experience this imbalance. That experience is called splitting and it's something I struggle with most days. It's probably the worst part of BPD. I needed to find a way to cope with my splitting instead of releasing it all on my partner. That included recognizing the feeling before it became a full-blown episode. And while it didn't prevent it from happening ever time it did allow me to separate myself from the situation to go for a walk, lie down or do something that distracted me from the episode. Sometimes you just gotta ride it out but it's unfair to release it all on your partner. And honestly, when it comes to that drama ... My point of view might be unpopular but,,, if they want to stay they'll stay; if they want to leave they'll leave. You can't do anything about it.