Feeling Pressure to Quit Smoking Weed After Graduating College

So I'm a HUGE advocate for marijuana. I see it more as medicine than a drug. So I know I'm a bit biased. I have 3 kids. I preschool my youngest 2 myself. I smoke every day. It's not as mind altering as people make it out to be. It makes me happy, it helps me eat, it helps me relax. I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, chronic pain, and an eating disorder. I believe if used PROPERLY, it is a very useful tool. I compare it to alcohol. I've seen alcohol do terrible things to people I care about. I've seen marijuana help people. There is a terrible stigma around marijuana that I find to be ridiculous when alcohol is easily accepted. And I believe it replaces harmful medications. It effects your lungs and believe it or not, as an adult, it does not kill your braincells as we were made to believe. I would suggest getting a marijuana card though so you don't risk losing your job if youre in a state where it's illegal.

I think that you should weight the pros and cons of it for you. And base your decision only on what it does or doesn’t do for you.

Dude I was on the same page for years, I work with kids, addiction runs in the family, my father doesn't seem to have any opinions because he smokes too but despite my mother also having a med card for gummies and salves she treats me like some kind of delinquent when it comes to me smoking and I can't even really bring it up to the rest of my family. But at some point I realized that it helps pretty much every issue I have so a couple of years ago I decided just to try getting my med card and trying medical grade weed to see if it was any better, three hits in I was painless for the first time in almost a decade. It's still just as easy to stop and start, I build up tolerance to everything way too easy and while it's noticeably less weed isn't an exception there. I have to detox off of every med I take periodically and weed seems to be the easiest despite it doing the most for me and me using it the most frequently. I decided by detoxing for about a month before my scheduled drs appointment and the night before trying to figure out if it genuinely helps things or if it's entirely the other medications, after the first two weeks I realized the detox symptoms were actually incredibly minor and the symptoms I was experiencing was just pain and fatigue from my disabilities, then I realized everything was going almost completely unchecked. Gabapentin would still put me to sleep amd was helping my anxiety some what but I would frequently and accidentally circumvent that by eating or pushing through the high I was meant to go to sleep during. My ADHD meds might as well have been water, the improvements in my ability to eat, sleep, shower, do school work, ect that I struggle with because of my ADHD were entirely weed based improvements and had absolutely nothing to do with the medication I was taking for it, we tweaked and adjusted that medication so much prior to that that at this point my only option was to try again with something else or just continue using weed for it. Nothing except prescription muscle relaxants my mother gave me sometimes helped with the pain and even so nothing compared to what the weed did for it. I was also anxious, paranoid, and mildly hallucinating by the end of the last two weeks in ways that I thought my prescribed medications were helping me with. It sucked and at first I considered having literally all of my medications adjusted again but instead I brought up the whole experiment to my doctor to see what she'd think. She agreed that it could be difficult but reminded me I can stop and that there's resources for these things, she also pointed out that if we can't find any med combination that works I might be too disabled to work anyways. I'm extra grateful for that because about 9 months after I got my med card my physical disabilities went to shit and I spend every few weeks completely bed bound now and it's still the only thing helping me. It's been a struggle to not feel guilty but the card helps to remind myself that it is a medication that im supposed to be taking by doctor's orders, anyone who judges me for that is judging me against what has been deemed medically best for me and that isn't actually anyone else's business.