Struggling with My Therapist: Should I Stay or Should I Go?

i need advice. last month my therapist got really mad at me for using a service he told me to use whenever i feel like i really need it. and i did that night, but he won’t hear me out. i haven’t had an appointment since then. for context, i live on a small island in alaska. there’s only one clinic, no hospital. just a clinic. there’s maybe 2-3 workers that work the graveyard shift for the emergency room. i went to the er because i was having the worst anxiety attack of my life, i genuinely thought i was dying. my therapist has his trainees rotate the behavioral health on call, and he said that if i needed him he will call or meet me at the clinic any time of the night. he told his trainees this as well. the doctor who was seeing me refused to call my therapist, so i had to see one of his trainees. he doesn’t know me as well, so i was afraid to say anything that would get me involuntarily put into a mental health hospital. i was suicidal that night, because of how much fear and distress i was in. but i will never act on it, because of how much trauma my family has already gone through. i explained this to my therapist and he brushed it off. saying that if i really was, i would’ve said something. and then he went on to say how frustrated he was having a client like me who is “unwilling to change”. i could get into my life story and my traumas but i won’t right now. i’ve only been seeing him for ~5 years. he’s disappointed in how “little progress i’ve made”. he says this to me all the time. i have the option to switch therapists, as there’s a separate place that offers only therapy. should i switch? should i make one last appointment to say good bye or should i ghost him completely? he’s such a nice older man but i just feel like we don’t work professionally.