Dealing with Health Issues and PTSD Nightmare

I JUST NEED HELP idk what this will look like but I need to say things PLEASE someone listen I'm so overwhelmed and panicky first of all I forgot to take my meds last night (not that they've been helping me much lately) and is that supposed to instantly make things worse?? because I slept horribly. nightmares and paralyzed and sweat and so much fear all night. I've been dizzy lately, the kind of dizzy you get when you forget to take pills(NOT your regular light headedness), but ALWAYS. AND today ofc it's a lot worse bc I did forget. idk what to do. I'm 18 but I feel like im nine again it feels like my life is falling apart all over again.. it shouldn't feel like that but it does. I feel paranoid lately, things make me jump when I'm by myself and this.. weird... PERSON keeps TORMENTING ME I'm not supposed to talk about her I'm supposed to do what she says I'm pissing her off by ignoring her rn idk what she'll do to me she only comes when I'm alone when it's convenient she is NOT A hallucination. she's just a person. there. maybe one day I'll be able to see her. but she's not my friend. she could be. but she'll destroy me. she's more like my imagination... but a little less in my control if that makes sense? I suppose she could be but when im sick and tired and.. whatever these episodes are.. shes just not. I've had to physically lock her out before. I haven't 'seen' her in a while. I imagine her form but do not see it. she's so impossible to resist because she's something to blame my behavior on. is that the only reason she exists??? I should mention that my FEAR OR GOING CRAZY is driving me insane. I WANT A BREAK. PLEASE. LOCK ME UP. I've never had a job before. i just got one and lately I'd rather die than move. I can't handle the commitment. why does being NEEDED come with getting payed🤣 i hate it i hate it I feel like they're better off without me. even when I was suicidal I never truly believed that. but it's coming back. SHE is coming back and she CHOKES ME when I'm alone but is this not just my stupid imagination??? I mean. I scored high for schizophrenia on my psych evaluation. BUT I ALSO scored high for... get this.. BOTH. BOTHHH denial of symptoms AND exaggeration of symptoms. every other result on my test was also contradictory like this. IM SO ✨️CONFUSED ✨️AND I DONT WANT TO HURT ANYONE BY DESTROYING MYSELF I'm so sorry for yelling at you all. I don't know what to expect in return. maybe nothing. I'm just scared for some stupid reason. I'm so tired. I'm trying to figure out what the hell is still so wrong with me

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Dealing with Health Issues and PTSD Nightmare