Struggling with Epilepsy and Mental Health

i’m not sure how helpful it is to say this, but give yourself grace. your body has been through a lot! your brain has been through a lot. unfortunately, depression, anxiety, and ptsd often come with epilepsy. so remember you’re never alone! i find that yoga and stretching really help me to clear my head. i think using my body for something i love, like yoga & dancing, helps me to reclaim my body. epilepsy doesn’t own me and i don’t want to associate my body solely with pain… idk if this helps, but i want to reiterate that you’re not alone <3

I am pretty sure I had smaller seizures before i even knew what they were exactly. I used to drop stuff all of the time and by drop i mean whatever it was would fly out of my hand. I didn’t realize until like maybe a year ago that it was probably seizures way back before I had my grand mals. I can’t imagine how hard it must be on you to have had that many grand mal seizures. they take away all of your energy make all of your muscles ache, you are incredibly strong. I could see the possibility of having PTSD from them they’re scary asf and same with watching people with epilepsy or seizures seizing in a video, I can’t watch those either they give me anxiety & most of the time I end up crying. I work in a nursing home so I have dealt with panic mode first hand just because you’ve seen it and experienced it the involuntary twitching and stumbling over words and it’s not easy to distinguish that from a seizure and old age. I’m always looking for it though because I don’t think enough people or caregivers are 100% aware of what one is or looks like. I just want you to know you’re not alone. I feel your pain and your anxiousness around the topics you discussed. If you ever need anyone to talk to message me on here please!! I’ll always listen!