Seeking Help for Seizure Disorder: What Tests Should I Get?

So about a year ago my petite mal seizures had rapidly progressed I think? It’s a lot more to get into but I had been dissociating like I normally would before a seizure before I’d black out and go myoclonic but this time I had been coming down the steps to get outside to lay on the grass so I could be safe from hard wood and concrete. But I had been a few steps from the bottom and had a full blown grand mal seizure and fell head first through the wall from about two feet off the ground. My ex didn’t help but left me there while screaming at me for the hole I’m not sure I came too for about a min just enough to beg to take me to the hospital but they wouldn’t. I had back to back tonic clonic seizures for about 45-50 min and I still haven’t gone to the doctors I just can’t. But I think my question is what even happened? My brain still feels slow and I developed a stutter. I can’t seem to find words even though I need to say them and I can’t really think to hard anymore or it starts feeling like I’m having a panic attack/ frontal lobe seizure. My brain will do these lapses of shutdowns and popping right back on but I can’t remember what just happened in the past couple min. But I feel like things got worse. I don’t know if that’s possible. I really appreciate if you read this whole post as it’s long. But I don’t know really where my seizures come from but was diagnosed with unknown seizure disorder in the frontal lobe. So I don’t know what to expect or how bad it is really. I don’t know anything about this but I do know there are tons of seizure types. What kind of scans or tests should I be looking to get done. I should also mention most SSRIS and a lot of medications that lower the seizure threshold do affect me badly where I’ll have more seizures than I should in a given day. My parents were on the firm belief that none of it could be real but I need someone or multiple people to help. It’s honestly one of the only things I’ve been scared of. I don’t want to die because my seizures take me out. I’m already terrified I did severe permanent brain damage and I just need people to help me anytime I try to deal with this my blood pressure spikes and it starts up the whole process again. Stress is the only trigger I’ve noticed so far.