Coping with Disordered Eating During Deployment

I’ve always struggled with disordered eating, I got that habit from my parents. But I used not eating as a serious coping mechanism after my husband was deployed. I felt like my whole world just left with him. It hurt so much to miss my best friend and worry he might not come home. I couldn’t handle the emotional pain, so I used the only thing that stimulated my ADD brain enough to distract me from that pain. Food and my body. Those are things I can control. I can’t control by husband off fighting in another country. Anyway, he’s been back for almost a year, but he leaves again in a couple months. Just the thought of him leaving again had caused me to begin relapsing again. The problem is, it seriously helps me cope so well! So I don’t want to stop….