Being sued by a church for speaking out about abuse

I used to disassociate a lot more than I do now. I say that to tell you there is hope to find a way to be able to stay more present. I found a good therapist that helped me learn some tools inviting mindfulness techniques that helped me recognize it's starting so I can pull back. It sounds crazy but I also read a book recently that talks about talking to your emotions to see what they want you to know instead of fighting them. It's tough and you have to be gentle with yourself if you do that but I've learned a lot about myself doing that. I hope you find a good lawyer and win your case. Church abuse fires me up so much. Good luck to you!

First you need to get a good therapist and 2nd get a good attorney that deals with these kind of issues. Research online. Get an attorney on pro bono! You have to be strong and not fear. There is nothing you did wrong. You are a victim. Churches like these should be shut down. They should had have an internal investigation instead of suing you. Shame on them. Best of luck.

Get yourself to a place where you can just think about what factually happened and write it down in a word document. you can go back and copy paste what you wrote or just send the document in an email to potential lawyers. if you have a therapist, they will be excellent help with this

The church itself is imperfect too

Look up grounding techniques on the internet and prepare them for when you have to discuss what happened.