Struggling with Trauma from Childhood Abuse

Thank you for sharing 🙏

I just recognized this year that was sexually abused as a child. I still don’t have vivid memories of anything because it all happened around the time I had a traumatic brain injury. It feels like a reel in my head of these flash backed images. I struggle to regulate my emotions when in romantic relationships with men. I tend to get triggered easily with men & my body literally goes back to being that 9 year old girl that couldn’t do anything but let this horrible thing happen to her. I know I need to sit with my 9 year old self, hug her & tell her that she is a victim. Tell her that this was not her fault & that she did the best she could to survive & to move forward with strength. Just because she was a victim does not mean now I am a victim. Now, I am a survivor. I am struggling & I am still learning how to work my way through this but seeing your words have helped me. Thank you for sharing. It feels comforting to know I’m not crazy for feeling this way and that other people who have similar experiences also struggle with things

I don't know my attacker. I mean he was a friend of my cousin but I don't remember his face. If he was to ever be in the same space as me I wouldn't know.