Struggling with Self-Harm Thoughts

Ok, so first things first, thank you for taking the time to be vulnerable. Secondly, I'd like for you to take a deep look at your support system. Your therapist and your husband should be a part of your support system. If you don't feel like you can trust them, then it's either an issue with yourself in trusting others or others' actions that have made you feel like you can't trust them. Also, from my understanding, you can't go to a ward based on only reoccurring nightmares. There has to be tangible proof that you are currently a danger to yourself/others. Your therapist should be helping you move through this. I think it's an important step in your journey to healing to be honest with yourself and others. Also, going to a ward or taking time off isn't a bad thing. It may be a nessicary thing. But that's honestly your case. My first time in a ward added to existing trauma. My second time helped. I'm still not great, but I am trying. I think you should tell the truth, at least to your therapist. Sometimes, when you have recurring dreams, it means you're stressed about something, and it's trying to come to fruition. I hope you can grow from this and please update on your progress is possible. Hope this helped.