Struggling with Body Image and Anorexia: Need Support

I'm feeling down. (TW for weightloss/weightgain/anorexia?) I feel horrible in my own skin. I'm a young person and I can't even feel comfortable in my own body because of body and gender dysphoria:[ I struggle with anorexia because of the meds I take, and it makes me loss a dangerous amount of weight. I feel horrible about it.:[ no matter what I do to try and gain weight, no matter if it's med changes, diet changes, or weight gain shakes, I cant seem to gain weight.. :[ my hip bones are sticking out of my body.. my skin doesn't have any mass:[ I can see all my bones like my hips, back, collar bone and hands, and it makes me feel insecure all day everyday. :[ I'm constantly subconscious about my weight and body because of this, and I can never get a break from the dysphoria. it's even got to the point where my family thought I was th0w¡ng up.. :/ I'm not though. I genuinely hate my anorexia with a burning passion. IMPORTANT NOTE- I am 11nb, almost 12nb, and I used to weigh about 65kg. about 6 months ago I was weighed, and I had lost almost half of my weight. as you probably know from the fact I'm 11nb, that is EXTREMELY unhealthy for my age. I feel scared, I'm not supposed to go thru these things. :/ is there anyone here who can relate? :/