Struggling to Survive and Hold on to Love

Things are starting to look really bad. I'm stuck living in a bad place for the next 80+ days, where I am treated like garbage constantly. Once the 80 days pass, things will finally be the way I want them, but I just have to survive till then. Not only that but my s/o is growing distant from me because of my situation and has already tried to break up with me. Yeah, I know to love and let go but I do not think I'm mentally capable of letting them go right now because they're kind of the only person who's strongly supported me for 4 years now without any judgment to what I say or do. I'm not asking for advice because I already have my next actions set in stone but I really need to let these feelings out and I would appreciate any discussion or comments based on my situation. I will be fine someday, but for now, I am really hurting, stressed and scared. I hate feeling like this.