Don't underestimate the value of having a tribe online. Look for fandoms for things you enjoy, games, movies, book series, whatever... You'll likely find like-minded people who have either been at or are where you are. I speak from experience! You don't have to worry about impression management or not having time to react appropriately via chats or message boards and that can grow into real friendships. I can say at 35 my two closest friends I've never actually met face to face and my husband I actually met online before pursuing an "irl" relationship. If nothing else, having people you can chat with without worrying about how you look or sound or smell can be good practice for irl. I wish you the best! 💕