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Livingasazebra

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I need help This is a long post but pls read it. I cannot for the life of me differentiate romantic vs platonic attraction. Let me explain my situation. My best friend ever and me are extremely close. In a very platonic way until last year when I’d look at her sometimes and just think “wow” bc she’s kinda attractive and like I’d find myself not thinking “wow she’s gonna get the boys” but more of “ I find that attractive” I started panicking but until this year I didn’t think too heavily of it bc it wasn’t until this year I really started to realise I definitely am not straight. She’s a very touchy person especially with those she feels incredibly close to (such as her bff lol).I went thru a phase last year of looking at her through rose tinted glasses and never got sick of her company. That ended and I needed more space and she irritated me more for no reason but then I still felt like there was something beneath the surface (on my side ofc) bc I felt attracted in a physical way at times and still somewhere in me romantically or what I think to be romantically. She came to mine for a sleepover last night for the first time ever and it really fuelled me into thinking about this. She’s gone home now so I feel safe to write this. We were snuggling and hugging and holding hands last night and I can’t be totally sure this isn’t psychological but if it wasn’t real I don’t think I could make this up tbh but while we were close I felt completely safe, I could’ve stayed there forever and I constantly crave her touch, it gave me some butterflies and I just wanted to stay in her arms forever. My love language is also touch but I’ve never felt THIS close to someone before. It’s also important to note I do not want to do the dirty with her and I’ve never felt urges to be really sexual but I’m not ready to have sex with anyone so that’s definitely clouding it. As for kissing it could happen but I’m not too sure tbh. I kept thinking last night I would get too passionate and make her uncomfortable so I tried to joke while we snuggled and stuff to keep it lighthearted but really I wanted to get in closer and stuff. I’m not sexually attracted to her but physically yes in a sense. Help??? Thank u for reading this long and if u can help pls comment IMPORTANT: SHE IS ALSO STRAIGHT BTW HER LOVE LANGUAGE IS JUST PHYSICAL TOUCH

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    • PrettyPolar2

      383d

      oh like figure it out. like you brain is behind a glass door. Yeah being with someone that is really observant can make you feel vulnerable. What is your plan? Are you going to just keep living life and see what happens or say something?

    • PrettyPolar2

      383d

      oh like figure it out. like you brain is behind a glass door. Yeah being with someone that is really observant can make you feel vulnerable. What is your plan? Are you going to just keep living life and see what happens or say something?

    • PrettyPolar2

      388d

      Okay sooooo I had a similar sitch with my college bff. We would hug and snuggle and I accidentally kissed her neck and then she made fun of me the next day. I didn't want to have feelings for her but I totally did and that is when I found out I was bisexual. Do you want to feel these feelings and eventually tell her or be on the safe side and work on putting mental boundaries for yourself so you don't think of her as anything but a friend. I think this is why women are able to know quicker than men that they are gay because female friendships are so touchy. She wasn't a mature person and eventually I told her I wanted to kiss her over the phone and she got super awkward about it and said that it was normal to want to kiss people. I told her because we were super close and I didn't want to feel weird around her all the time. So instead of us talking again she would try to seduce me all the time, she would change in front of me, I almost drew a nude drawing of her and then I couldn't finish it because I felt so uncomfortable, and she would put her butt and boobs in my face. Now I realize she was sexually harassing me and playing off of my vulnerability instead of being straight forward (no pun intended). I tell my story to warn you about how it could go poorly but if your friend is mature and is respectful you could ask her to be less touchy or say you have feelings for her and she might be cool about it either way! I am for sure you're not platonic anymore but you are in a limbo area so you are in control of your feelings and your choices

      • Livingasazebra

        388d

        @PrettyPolar2 thank you so much and I’m so sorry u experienced that. My bestie has been extremely supportive of me coming out and has always had a feeling I was bi even when she met me. If I told her she’d never do anything like that to me but it would destroy our friendship bc she’d get far too awkward so I’m not going to tell her and tbh I just wanted to talk with ppl bc this is a hell of a lot to work thru and take in. If I asked her to stop being so touchy I’d be afraid she’d work it out and she works out a lot about me even without me speaking so that’s already induced anxiety in me a lot.

        • PrettyPolar2

          388d

          @Livingasazebra okay that makes sense. What do you mean by she'd work it out?

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