Since my best friend hasn’t got this app I feel I can ven...

Since my best friend hasn’t got this app I feel I can vent freely here without feeling nervous she’ll see it. I’m questioning my sexuality recently. I’m either straight or bi. I’ve told my mum and my bestie. So you might be wondering why I don’t want her to see this post right? But that’s bc I kinda have a small crush on her. At least I think I might. We’re very touchy with each other (she’s just mucking about) she’s very straight and has expressed it multiple times while I’ve been open ended because I’ve been on and off questioning slightly (not very seriously until now). The other night we went to a restaurant and she put her hand on my thigh (mucking about to show me how her friends tease each other) and I got a bit turned on and obviously didn’t want to show her so the second time she tried to do it I pushed her hand away on instinct. I felt really awkward bc I can’t show that I felt something when she did it. Things like this have been happening like I’ll sweat when I’m holding her hand, and sometimes I’ll think she’s hot and my view on her changes to something other than platonic. She’s my bestie for life and I won’t be telling her any of this, ever. But I felt I needed to say this somewhere just as a discussion so if u did read all of this pls comment I would really appreciate it bc this is extremely confusing and stressful to keep from someone who I normally tell everything. I’m not certain I’m bisexual atm I’m bicurious. I can’t actually see myself in an intimate sexual relationship with a girl but maybe that’s bc I genuinely haven’t questioned it or thought seriously about it idk. But any support is welcomed with open arms pls 💜