Dealing with Relationship Anxiety and Depression

i know that feeling too well— but best thing you can do once you feel guilt is to talk to them; communication is the best remedy for this explain that sometimes mood swings can cause severe changes in your behavior, but you dont know how to control it yet if they're understanding, they'll get you and want to help if they can and im guilty of thinking my partner hates me every now and then, but don't worry they dont hate you for struggling; the most they'd be is confused, as outsiders to this condition usually are; since it's a heavily internal battle but remember it's okay that your partner is independent; you'll get there eventually you have your own challenges to deal with and it's very strong of you to fight every day and care about getting help i wish you the best and i hope you get good treatment in the long run :)