Obsessing Over Cheating Boyfriend

thank you for your response. I've just started to realize the whole reason I think he's cheating is that he neglected me and distorted everything I watch and listen too.. till the point I don't even watch TV, visit family and think less myself.

Ive done that before Drove me crazy Now I will obsess about any one thing over and over again and it is so hard to stop. If it’s not the depression it’s the anxiety if it’s not the anxiety it’s the delusions and schizophrenia. Occasionally when I’m at my best I am a force of nature with a tidal wave of success and dominance. Unfortunately that is a rarity and I battle just trying to function at all. I do have hope things can change for the better on a more permanent level. It’s been said that Hundreds of years ago, the Natives would rejoice and celebrate when someone in the tribe was stricken with a terrible mental illness That meant that person was meant to eventually be the next healer, the next shaman, the most important in the tribe, even above the chief. When I feel I can’t make it any longer I will think of that and it gives me strength to hold on.