Possible Miscarriage and Fertility Struggles

I noticed some strange things happening to me over a period of time while I've been gone , One: I believe I suffered a possible miscarriage, two: I'm suffering from a Bladder infection , three : back to the misscarriage, I think is because I believe I broke my own water not knowing I was pregnant and then caused for something to come out even though nothing ever did. I was told I had an infection but because I'm so stuck on having a child and knowing that my husband isn't ready like I am I convinced myself I had some kind of miscarriage when in reality it's just a bladder infection. but that doesn't explain why I've been so turned on by pregnant women porn. maybe it's just because I'm so ready to have children I'm convincing myself that I'll never know what it's like to feel that feeling within my body. I need to masturbate more frequently and I have a very high sex drive but he's not always as open to the idea of sex. and I have this thing where I crave my husband and I can't calm the urge to get him all interested in me. I do tend to crave sex when I'm in pain. it helps take my pain away and keep my mind off of what's going on with me internally. I love my husband but I really crave our child to be made but if we can't physically do it ourselves I at least want to know so I can plan ahead for a surrogate or adoption. I feel something kicking me but I know there's nothing there. I'm depressed again but ill be ok.