Feeling suicidal/having thoughts of self harm REALLY sucks worse when you're pregnant... I haven't had these thoughts in like 2 years, and they're just now coming back. I honestly don't know how to handle it. I obviously can't off myself, because that would be selfish and killing the baby too, plus I don't want to leave my husband. But sometimes I feel like I'm only alive for the baby's sake. I'm not ever going to act out on my thoughts, but it's still tormenting to deal with knowing that you can't hurt yourself without a baby being in you.