Struggling with Mental Health on Vacation

Does warmer weather actually have a strong link to slipping into mania for you? Because I've ended up in the hospital for my mental health every summer until hopefully this year ends the cycle. And THC honestly just keeps me at bay, it doesn't get me high anymore. I'm scared I'm gonna slip again.

Sounds stressful and I’m sorry. I usually have similar feelings before traveling or vacation so you aren’t alone. Anything that might offset stabilized instability (not sure if accurate but hope you get idea) is very scary and hard to explain to others. I don’t know what’s in you pen but I vape nicotine and really helps my anxiety so when I travel and can’t, I wear a nicotine patch to help get me thru. Try to get out her things to occupy my mouth- gut, coffee, water, tea… and distraction mentally. Try to find something that will get me out of my head and that differs based on moods- reality tv vs war movie or crime show. For me I need a low level of stimulation to relax my thoughts. So meditation in these instances isn’t helpful. For me meditation works for prep or recovery but not in the moment. The deep breaths are same. In the moment i need forceful and short to keep me going. I recently got a silicone wedding ring on Amazon but I use it as a fidget toy. Definitely helps and people are less inclined to notice that I’m about to crawl out of my skin. Just try to make self as comfortable as possible and if your with ppl try and talk to them before rather than in the moment. If I tell my sisters my anxiety is really bad can I take this seat this time they usually help me but if I’m in the moment and verbalize it doesn’t go smoothly and they don’t get that I’m actually serious and that seat would greatly reduce my distress. My advice based on what’s helped me the most in situations like this- figure out what overstimulates you and find those solutions to help you avoid them for times like this when you already dealing with stuff. And find what understimulates and avoid for time being you so you don’t have as much time to dwell in the thoughts since they’re already stressing you. I can get back to understimulatjon once in consistently more calm but trying to just in when I’m having a hard time feels way too unstable for me. I gotta ease into “calm”. Also remember this isn’t easy to manage and you are trying whether it looks like it or not. You even asking to figure out way to help yourself is powerful.