Intrusive Thoughts of Self Mutilation

the thing that helps me stop my thoughts (not as extreme as removing an eye or tip of my finger) is thinking super in depth. like thinking how much i always regret hurting myself when i wake up, or how i always regret like an hour later, when the issue wasn’t too big anyways. think more into the future and the repercussions of the decisions, like the pain of multiple surgeries, huge risk of a painful infection, parents getting upset with you, how your friends would feel, etc. because there is a point where you’re gonna regret whatever you do, and it’s irreversible. sorry for possibly being a little upsetting, but it’s something that knocks the sense into me