Struggling to Explain My Self-Injury

Ik it's a serious topic but I just find it funny that the same thing happened to me literally not very long ago. I thought it a bit odd because... I haven't done this in a long while nor felt the need to in while either. I didn't feel negative either, but all of a sudden I got a very strong urge to do it. Afterwards I felt the exact same as I did before I started doing it... calm. The desire to sh just came and left like a ghost.

Sounds similar to when I bite my nails or pull my hair. I don't think about doing it, I just do it instinctively. It's become second nature to do so. Try putting the items you use to self-harm in a place that isn't easy to access. Whether it's high up a shelf, a locked box, etc. Hopefully, that should give you enough time to realize what you're doing and stop yourself since you're putting in so much effort to get them in the first place