Sexual Abuse Trauma: Seeking Advice

Could I get some people's opinions on my current life situation? huge tw for sexual abuse and stuff so basically I personally believe my dad sexually abused me from 8 and a half to 12 every week and about 4 times at 13 and 14. when I was 14 I tried to run away and then I just couldn't and went back home, I told my mom about it, she at first comforted me then screamed at me and screamed and screamed because she felt I was lying. After that I gave in because she would not talk to me for three days and told her I was lying (she threatened to go against me in court). I ended up called cps maybe 4 months later because I couldn't handle it and already had tried to od. My dad had a criminal case open and it was immediately closed, there was no evidence. In treatment they diagnosed me with psychotic depression, which means those 6 years of abuse I remembered was fake? I don't believe that but still I was forced to either stay in treatment or go back home. Well, now I'm home and struggling very very badly. What do you think i should do?