Dealing with a Toxic Parent

You're definitely not in the wrong. My mother was never physically made me uncomfortable or distressed, but her yelling and guilt tripping affected my mental health poorly. What I did was moved out at 18 and cut all contact for over a month, until my resentment faded and she was sorry. She and I have a pretty good relationship now that we have space apart. The best thing you can do it try to hold out the best you can and getting out as soon as you're old enough to. As far as the fear of people, I've been there. I didn't have therapy as I kid so I gave myself exposure therapy. I'd push myself to walk past people that gave me anxiety, until I was eventually able to walk through a crowded lunch room

For a long time I wouldn’t let anyone touch me. Being abused in so many different ways in my life made me feel powerless. Then one day a particular friend came into my life and stayed no matter how badly I’d tried to push them away they stayed. So then I started trusting people again. However, if there is a crowd of people I duck out and try to find a safe spot to go. I’m so sorry she did this to you, I’m sorry she doesn’t understand anything beyond what she thinks. I know that one day you’ll start to trust people again, and if not I’m always here to talk to. Parents should never be like that at all. I hope that in the future she finally realizes what’s going on and becomes better. Have you told her about the other guy? Maybe talking to her about it would make her realize you are uncomfortable having guys around. I just hope for the uttermost best for you in years to come. I believe in you, you’re going to do great things.