Feeling Lost and Broken After Laparoscopy: Need Advice

I feel lost and broken... I had a laparoscopy last Tuesday, this was supposed to help my pain and help me move forward. Well it's done the opposite. I am still in pain with more questions. No endometriosis found... No explanation for my pains. I am truly exhausted. I don't know why I'm in so much pain most of the time therefore I don't know what to do to help. I'm generally struggling with life again at the moment. I'm supposed to be happier. I'm not. I am broken and sad and I am struggling. I have no motivation. I just want to cry and sleep. I barely want to eat. I've forgotten to take my medication for about a week now. I remembered today though so that's something. I don't want people to think I'm lazy, but what else are they supposed to think when I can't do the things I'm expected to. I'm struggling with work and once again I'm struggling generally 😭 I am waiting for an adhd diagnosis. I am also referred to reds (relational emotional difficulties service) I have my first group session Friday. It's difficult to be told by a gp they think you have bipolar or some personality disorder and refer you for diagnosis but when you move area and the new area don't diagnose. It's difficult. I don't even know how I feel. How am I even supposed to get help. 😕