Exploring the Impact of Past Relationships on Mental Health

All my exes. My "first love" that I knew for 8 years (dated for 1 year), had me sell all my "stuff" (all my fish, my frog, my snails) and were planning to move in together. He then completely ghosted me. I was freaking out, thought he was dead. Called the cops and everything. Finally he contacted me. Turned out he wanted to break up for the last 6 MONTHS, but was scared to because of my depression. The next guy I went out with lasted 2 weeks but did a number on me. He manipulated me pretty bad, and was using me. Would play mind games, and then eventually came out that he was just using me. Then I met my ex. On and off for about 3 years. Manipulation, cheating, emotional and psychological abuse, threatens of physical abuse, it was really bad. I felt trapped and was about to off myself to get away. Then my now fiance stepped in. He saved my life, and changed everything. He got me out of that situation, and has never left. He's so supportive. We have a son, and have been going strong for 2 years. Unfortunatly due to what my exes put me through, I constantly feel like I'm not good enough and that he will one day cheat on me.. I have so much to work through.