Dealing with PTSD and Heartbreak: My Story

My ex dumped me because of how I was treating him; my PTSD due to SA was causing me to be anxious , impatient, and argumentative. It was easy for me to get overstimulated or stressed and I would dig things up from the past. I would unload my insecurities and emotions on him and he got fed up. My emotions were out of whack and I realized it, I wanted to get better with his support; I had just started to get help when he broke things off. I can’t help but feel shitty, I fucked things up because something someone else did to me. I lost the one person in my life that had made me feel safe, comforted, and supported. I felt like because of him I could go back to the person I used to be. But something that was done to me follows me around and steals all my joy and hope. I can’t seem to cope with this breakup, although it was one of my shortest relationships it’s by far the most painful loss I’ve experienced. It keeps me up, I get flashbacks of moments I was so happy. He was one of the most patient, caring people I have met in hundreds if not thousands and he gave up on me as a partner. How do I accept that loss? It causes such anguish and physical pain daily.