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Mccoy

701d

I'm new on here was diagnosed with ptsd about 4 yrs ago. 10 months ago I lost the love of my life, my everything. l also died the day my everything did. To me no one around me understand the depth of my pain. I'm needing just to be able to find someone who has an understanding of what I'm goi g thru my ptsd is even way worse than before.

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    • Crystal_Rose

      700d

      @Mccoy I'm glad you find him in that cloud. And definitely talk like he is here, I do the same with my baby. We'll get better as time goes on. Otherwise, just feel the grief however you need.

    • Mccoy

      700d

      I talk like my husband is still here. I am always going to so I can keep my love alive people look at funny some times but I am not ever letting go I will be with him and my brother again. I know he is here with me on another level. I have a pic of a cloud that is my husband I couldn't believe it. But it's him

      • Crystal_Rose

        700d

        @Mccoy I'm glad you find him in that cloud. And definitely talk like he is here, I do the same with my baby. We'll get better as time goes on. Otherwise, just feel the grief however you need.

    • Mccoy

      701d

      Yes it does. Most have said nothing to me at all not even his family. Alot do not know what to say. Is sounds mean but no matter what anyone ones says it will never take the soul destroying pain away. Because they have no clue how it feels. It was bad when my brother was killed but this hurts so much more and the pain is so much deeper than anything that has ever happened in my life

      • Crystal_Rose

        701d

        @Mccoy Its not mean to say nobody can do anything. I say the same with my son. The closest thing I can get is talking to people who have also suffered great loss. Another thing that helps is just being able to talk about them freely without judgement. I know most people don't because it gets sad and depressing, or they're afraid to set you off, or it makes the feel awkward. Thats been my biggest problem. Other than that grief and moving on is a road people must take on their own, but receive help and support along the way

    • Mccoy

      701d

      I have not lost any children but when I was 21 I lost my brother he had just turned 17 the day before and it was 2 days before Christmas. It is horrible I didn't cry. But losing my husband that I love so much this to me is worse to me because I had finally found the man who loved me for me. All others were physically and mentally abusive. 8 years we were together. He did nothing that had been done to me by everyone else. Of course we all have faults but to me he was as close to prince charming as I was going to get in reality

      • Crystal_Rose

        701d

        @Mccoy I couldn't begin to imagine losing my partner, but im sure its worse. Having someone love you for you is q major goal in life and it doesn't happen often. Im sure many people tell you that he's still always going to be with you. But they don't understand the loneliness. The longing and desire, the hole in ur heart. Nobody can tell you what to do or how to feel. Some people can try to relate the best they can to try to let you know ur not completely alone, but everyone's story is always different which affects everyone differently.

    • Crystal_Rose

      701d

      I cant say it was the love of my life, but three years ago I lost my son and I can certainly say I never felt more alone in the world than that time of my life. My son was my whole world and he took all of my love. My PTSD was from hospital treatments and his passing. Its especially hard because I get triggered just by memories of him. It doesn't always set me off but when I do I cry uncontrollably until my nose bleeds. Nothing will ever take that pain away, the pain just gets less lessened. if you ever wanna talk feel free to message

    • Amythist

      701d

      I say see a dr and get the right meds. Ive had ptsd my whole life.

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