Dating as a Trans, Fat, Autistic, and Physically Disabled Person

I hope that answers your question, You are not alone, You are appreciated, You will find someone, Keep marching solider.

[ Rant ? ] [ Swearing is used ] [ Cutting is mentioned ] In response to your question at the end "Do you relate?" I agree.. in my case it's just talking to anyone, I have problems actually being able to be.. quite broadly– anything with anyone, I can only really converse with those on the internet, other then that I do something embarrassing, be sarcastic, act oddly, fidget, start shaking, cry, can't stop moving, talk a lot, ect.., and not notice, cut the shit out of myself later on when I realize. I have never truly felt like I deserved anyone, nobody has truly been in love with me, quite frankly all people of the sort have used me in some unhealthy way that I'd never realized. I truly am nobody interesting, just somebody who cannot connect— who cannot stay connected.

You don't sound insufferable, you sound like a lovely person to know actually. You are your own worst critic, and our brains can lie to us. It sounds like you have a lot of negative inner dialog that may not be true, and you don't have to invalidate yourself like that. Venting is definitely ok and it does not make you less pleasant to be around. I agree with lazydaisy too. It's definitely really frustrating to go through, but it'll be worth it once you find someone truly worth your love. Make sure you protect yourself more than doing something just because you want their affection.

Trust me sometimes being single is a blessing. People are TOXIC out here or just cheating. Haha no but in all honestly do not fret. The world is too big. There’s someone for everyone. But try to make it less about whether they will like you and more about whether YOU will like them. Don’t be so hard on yourself. ❤️