Struggling to Find Love: Am I Meant to Be Alone?

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Been single my whole life....I attract bad guys.......waiting for a true luv...but....on a road of self recovery and self discovery and learning to deal with myself and emotions and feelings and all that....doing and learning self care is Soo tough for me and so is learning to love and care for myself ...I read a meme the other day all that care that yo do for others do for yourself and I'm like yea that's right...but yet so hard....so I totally in the same boat too

My meds have rendered me emotionally and sexually sterile. My libido is on the floor, and romantic gestures make me... uncomfortable. I wasn't always like this, I was a hopeless romantic in highschool, though I guess I've always struggled with sexual attraction... I can look at someone and be attracted to them, but interacting with them is a different story. Compliments on my appearance repulse me and romantic gifts stress me out. I hate being touched. All that stuff is due to my autism tho

I know these feelings well, I've felt like I don't deserve love on and off throughout my life. My last relationship ended very badly and that had ke thinking that way for a while. But we can't give up, and we can't wallow in it forever. I know this advice sounds super cliche but if you power through these feelings, work on enjoying things yourself in life, and put yourself out there things can turn around. I know it feels hopeless sometimes, trust me I feel that way a lot but we can't all lose any sense of self worth. I can't guarantee there's always someone out there for everybody, but there's only a chance if we keep our heads up and keep trying. Giving up on ever finding love makes a self fulfilling prophecy of loneliness that nobody deserves to be stuck in.

I don't think there's always a reason, be it by chance or just cruel fate, some people are cursed to be unloved or settle for something less. I've been single my entire life (21) outside of the maybe 4 months where I miraculously met someone I can only describe as the godsent girl of my dreams, yet I've never felt as unloved as I have the past month. I don't blame anyone, I think some people truly are just cursed to be unloved completely regardless of their personality or background.