Struggling with Concentration Despite Stabilization

😥 after my rape, I didn't feel comfortable going anywhere by myself! I was scared everywhere I went that somebody was going to jump me. I took my children with me everywhere I went. And I kept gaining weight on purpose to keep men from looking at me. It sure did work! But now I'm paying for keeping this weight on me way too long. I've got osteoarthritis all over the place and I'm always in pain. If I could lose weight the doctor said, I wouldn't hurt so much. But it's awful hard to lose it once you got it. Is taking me 30 years to get where I'm at. I'm no longer afraid to go by myself, but I still choose to take someone with me sometimes. I admit I'm a little nervous by myself, but it's not enough to keep me from doing some things by myself. Years of counseling and my church family and God help me get through to where I'm at. I have hope for my future for the first time in my life. And I am looking forward to losing weight. So far, I have been as big as 305 lb. But now I am at 253. It's not a great deal of change so far, but I still have time on my hands.

I understand, trust God and have you looked into self affirmation apps they help me so much