Struggling with Trauma and Mental Health

I was stuck in a horrible mental cycle for years. I finally got anxiety medication from Alpha medical without insurance so my family wouldn't know and it allowed me to finally have control over my own thoughts again. I hope things get better for you!

Can you see a therapist? Have you seen a therapist?

A lot of people don't like the idea of using medication to treat mental illnesses but I find it incredibly helpful :)

I’ve found that comparing yourself to who you used to be does way more harm than good. You are a completely different person now and all you can do is strive to be the best version of yourself in the present. I was a world champion jiu jitsu competitor before my major trauma and now I can barely walk some days due to autoimmune problems/depression/etc. You are so much wiser now and have a totally different perspective in life. You still bring value to the world and things will get better if you keep pushing forward.

I feel the se way but for some odd reason I thi k it could be deeper on my end like it's affecting my skin hair and blood sugar and bp levels now I'm afraid to eat so I just be always outta energy now smh feel like death calling me no matter who I explain it too it don't work

I'm sorry to hear, I feel like that too, like I'll never be the same again :( but I guess we take it day by day and hopefully overtime things will get better