Feeling Doomed with BPD: Anyone Else?

Would love to start a group chat focused on talking about PTSD in a Snapchat setting or some other app I'm open-minded and willing to work with whatever makes people feel comfortable. feel free to chat with me. I hope I'm not alone in saying that I just want to community that I can talk openly with about my experiences.

late response and still looking for a screening, but yes, i do. i really feel like i'm not doing enough as a person, that i treat all my loved ones like garbage, and that i don't have the ability to do any different. i really feel like a speck on earth.

Yes. I was doing so well coping for 3 years. Now for no reason I'm back in a dark hole, self harming and everything. I feel so hopeless constantly. It's agonising

yes it’s horrible :( i always feel like i’m a big bowl of spaghetti n it’s so hard to untangle each piece. what if i can’t get better yk..

Every single day

Very often. I'm afraid I'll always be this way and a lot of times I'll just think "there's no point in fighting it because it won't ever go away" and it really sucks. I want to get better but I don't know how and I rarely have the energy to even try to get better

Yeah. Been going to therapy and I'll start to improve but quickly slip back into the same rutt I was in before. I guess the best way I can describe myself is like trying something that you know is too good to be true and getting disappointed when it fails as predicted. Like that's me personified

Yep exactly this. I’ve been in DBT for 6 months and am still feeling this way.

Yes

yes very much so 😭

Yes, all the time

I used to, before I even got this diagnosis, but tbh i feel very hopeful that there is available content specific to bpd as well as special types of methods to reframe thinking....next time youre low google some resources!! From Borderline to Beautiful is a podcast that has really helped me lately, too. I listen to it when im driving.

Basically always yeah. Sometimes I wanna be hopeful but I've lifted up and fallen back down so many times it's hard to expect things ever actually changing.

Yes I do

Yes. BPD isn’t easy at all! Hugs.

Absolutely, every single day. Most days I mask that feeling, but yes, absolutely. You’re not alone 💜

Even sometimes the most dedicated friend(s) have no power over the tumultuous churning of emotions we deal with everyday. I constantly live in fear, sometimes with subtlety, sometimes without. All that matters is that you stay on top of YOUR wagon, no one and nothing has control over you. Sometimes it may feel otherwise but I promise that excuse dries up quick. 😂👍💕🙏

I feel like I'm going to be alone forever

Yes. I feel empty, dissociative, numb, I feel like I have no purpose or cause. It really sucks.

between the trauma noise in my head and the ADHD i feel that i’m doomed and won’t survive in this world

Every single day. I feel like I'm completely broken and I should just stay away from people