Background Suicide Thoughts: Living with the Past and Present

I have those background thoughts too. It something I've come to expect and I dismiss them immediately. I'll be driving and think about driving off a bridge I'm crossing over or have a tense moment and wish I would just be done and gone, but it's all in the background like you were saying. I accept it as part of my bipolar disorder and keep going on with my life. I have never tried to act on these thoughts or feelings. I have so much to keep living for.

I have it too! But when those thoughts pop up the other part of my brain goes over what could go wrong & not lead to death. And that tends to help me snap out of those thoughts.

Yeah even when I’m doing well it’s always just looming. I don’t want it to be like this thing that I fall back on for comfort for me I find comfort and escape in it but it’s not healthy it’s not healthy thinking and living is so beautiful life is so precious we will get through this and want to live. My medicine is helping me not feel suicidal all the time