Struggling to Find Joy in Hobbies with Depression

I haven't really figured it out yet, but it happens. Sometimes I binge watch YouTube videos, I watch my favorite creators and gamers. I get more joy watching others play Minecraft, sims4 or draw then when I actively do it myself, but sometimes I get really inspired and I go play one of those games or draw. I found listening to music, having a long playlist of songs you like or that give you a pumped up sense of energy helps me feel better when I draw or play a game. I also watch gamers who play with other people on among us or uno ect. Helps me feel less lonely, plus the jokes on these videos or from podcasts actually get me to audibly laugh. So simply put, humor, inspiration, and excitement (from music) are the goals/keys to breaking out of said numb bubble.

Yeah. It's hard to say. I have PDD and MDD, so it's always around. But taking little steps. Resting when I felt I needed it, but at least doing something I want to once a day just to feel productive. Even if it was reviewing a couple of language cards on MangoLanguages

I had this and it absolutely was very very awful feeling. However with small steps magic did happen. At the moment I’m calming down from a panic attack so I cant focus properly. I will type what helped me, once I am all focused. Just wanted to let you know you aren’t alone and many went through this very ugly feeling. I managed to get out of it, I believe you can too. ♡ lots of love to you.