Struggling to Connect with Past Self

I used too!. I was diagnosed with depression at 40 and u never realized I was depressed. I just did what I had to do to survive. Was a mom at 16 two kids by 18. Went through years of drug addiction. It wasn't until I went into recovery that I realized my drugs of choice were because of my moods and then i wS diagnosed with add, depression, bipolar, anxiety and ptsd.

I’ve never been able to put this into words before but yes! I also kinda feel like I’m not very involved in my present day successes though if that makes sense? Like I’m just constantly putting out fires and every day is just survival in a way so maybe I’m not really living in the moment or consciously working towards goals. So in the future I’ll have that same feeling about what I’m doing right now.