TwoRatsInASock

105d

I need to conquer my fear of going to the doctors. But I cant help but spiral and think it’ll lead to terrible answers or outcomes. Or that they won’t believe me at all. All the poking and prodding and stabbing. It’s too much. But I know that my body is falling apart. The smell doesn’t help either.

I just don’t know what to do. And it’s getting to me.

Anxiety (Including GAD)

Lorazepam

Chronic Pain

Other general symptoms

Acute Anxiety

Sensory Processing Disorder

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  • Iron

    105d

    That sucks, it's really difficult to get through medical trauma especially when you keep being exposed to it. Maybe try bringing a comfort item to your next appointment? I know it can sound childish or silly, but I figure you'd rather be a bit childish than terribly afraid. Sorry if this isn't helpful

  • Witcheress

    105d

    I know what you mean! I'm getting botox injections in my stomach today and I am terrified of going.

  • wheezynwavy

    105d

    I feel ya. I have a whole pre and post doctor routine to help with the anxiety and trauma. It feels extra sometimes but it really does help.

  • Sparkie

    105d

    My partner struggles with anxiety with doctors as well, and it's become more noticeable with myself as well. Something that helps my partner is having someone go with him to the doctors as support. Do you have a family member or loved one who could go with you? Holding someone's hand can help immensely in the moment for some. With me I have been working through it with fidget toys, I recently discovered one in the shape of a rainbow slug. I enjoy items that move smoothly and have a nice clack sound to it, and otherwise shaking my leg is my go to. Fidget cubes have little buttons on them that make a good clicking sound like a pen, along with other nice textures that sooth the worry. I hope that some of the ideas that come up in your comments help you out, and I'm sorry you experience this. You aren't alone and I'm here if you want someone to message :)

    • TwoRatsInASock

      105d

      I have my mom as an advocate. I’m just terrified because of previous negligence from doctors. And it’s been ten years. So…that’s also terrifying.

  • sabbymer

    105d

    That is relatable. For me it's not that I'm scared I'm just overwhelmed by how doctors do things. My symptoms all ricochet off each other and it's hard to know which one is most important to take care of. Then I also get tests back and they say I'm fine but I'm always in a lot of pain. I don't know what test would finally explain things for me.

    • TwoRatsInASock

      105d

      I have severe chronic pain that’s either coming from joints or nerves or random bruises. And it’s hard to get people to listen when all you get is “maybe you should exercise more”.

      • sabbymer

        102d

        Yep! People are used to instant validation so they use that mindset instead of trying to understand

  • justpeachyqueen

    105d

    I completely understand. This is something that I deal with a lot. Constantly dealing with doctors and medical gaslighting burns me out. Could you try to move as many appointments to Telehealth as possible? It’s helped me to feel safer being in my own environment and not feeling like I’m at the drs mercy. Also, when I do have to go, I bring my mom -who is kind of like my advocate if they don’t believe me. You could also try taking some panic attack medicine to help you feel more in control. I still struggle a lot but I don’t feel completely helpless

  • Fire101

    105d

    I also have a really hard time going to the doctor so I know how you're feeling I can't speak for you but the people in my life really went to the doctor more often than they should have and that kind of messed me up and made me never want to be a hypochondriac could that possibly be where you are or do you have a different mindset

  • juliecarlstan

    104d

    Sucks!! I'm in the same boat. Don't think I'd need blood pressure meds if I weren't so freaked out by the entire doctor visit experience. They gave me an 0.5 MG gentle benzo diazapine to take only sporadically,and when I really needed it. Lorazepam (?) Can't remember if that's right

    • Fire101

      102d

      girl you hit the jackpot but on everything be careful Lorazepam is the best way I can describe it is like unequivalent to Roid Rage the amount of rage you will get coming down off of it don't get lost on it keep taking its sporadically like you say

  • Fire101

    102d

    If you ever feel like it's too much or like you just want to keep extra track of it when they gave me 0.5's I cut them in half and 25's will still work for some people

  • Fire101

    102d

    .25 mg*

  • mothful

    101d

    i def have anxiety meeting new doctors the best advice i can give is do your research. i like to look at different reviews for the doctor. i haven’t tried yet but you might have luck on reddit?

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