Struggling with Mental Health and Loneliness

Tw:Suicide, Self Harm I can’t take it anymore. The voices in my head telling me to end it are getting louder and I really want to listen. I have nothing to look forward to in life besides work and on my days off I just sit at home doing fuck all and I keep wanting to fall back into self harm but I know it isn’t the answer. And the loneliness makes it even worse, I come home to nothing and no one and it makes my life a living hell. Despite me knowing I can’t be in a relationship right now because of my mental health I still can’t stand being alone every night and constantly longing for some type of companionship, it just makes me want to take that final step. And the worst part is I know that there’s nothing I can do to change my situation so I just sound like a pathetic entitled prick complaining about everything and I hate it cuz I can’t talk to anyone about it without me thinking I’m a bad person for like trauma dumping