TW, SELF HARM/SUICIDAL IDEATION . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I'm so tired of being at the lowest end of third class... I just lost like the millionth job because of my fucking medical conditions. I try so fucking hard to hold a job but every job I do get doesn't like the fact that I have to call off sometimes for my conditions. It's so frustrating when you don't know when you're getting fucking toilet paper, wondering if you'll get thrown out every time you're late on rent, I mean fuck I can't even afford to have my wifi on and I can BARELY afford my electric bill... Hell I'm not even paying my own phone bill because I can't afford it, no I have to rely on my narcissistic parents to pay that. I'm just so miserable all the fucking time that literally all I've done since getting fired is smoke 🍃 and sleep. I got a new job but it's part time and DEFINITELY won't pay my bills by myself... My fiance is working on getting a job but hasn't had any luck, I applied for unemployment once already and I just had to reapply last night for some fucking reason, so now imma be late on rent for the trillionth time in a fucking row... I'm so exhausted and I just want to relax, but god forbid that ever happens...