Feeling Alone with Anxiety, PTSD, and Bipolar Disorder

I feel so trapped and alone right now it's crazy. my relationship with both my parents is shit, because of my disability I haven't been able to get a job, I keep having flashbacks from past trauma and I have no one to talk to about it. there's just so much stuff going on and I can't keep up with it all. my anxiety has been really high and I keep having really bad panic attacks. I just don't know what to do anymore...

My depression and PTSD have been intense the past couple weeks. I’ve spent yesterday and today in bed the majority of the day, only getting up to make myself do a small thing here and there. I missed work all but Monday, two of those days were scheduled PTO, but the other two I just couldn’t find the energy or strength to go. My thoughts have been dark many days as well. I just feel so alone in all of this. I have so much going on in my life that’s contributing and I have so many good things as well. Depression doesn’t care. I’m thankful to have a wonderful therapist and understanding workplace.

Hi everyone. So I've been dealing with anxiety for about 5 years now. It started when I had a false alarm heart attack scare during a long depressive episode after not taking care of myself and eating unhealthy. Ever since, I've been hyperaware of my body, feeling like any small ache on my chest and left arm is a heart attack, any headache can be a stroke, anytime my breathe gets shallow, that I'd feel like im dying and surfacing anxiety attacks very often. It's exhausting. I've also been working on my feelings of anxiety when driving far distances. I've had about 4 panic attacks in the middle of the freeway, having to pull over. I've learned to de-escalate by grounding and deep breathing, but it only does so much. I take Xanax if needed, but I don't want to depend on it. I tried Zoloft but it made me feel like I couldn't focus and it scared me so I stopped. I'm currently taking cbd gummies with a bit of thc but it's expensive. It's been a debilitating journey, making me scared to go and have fun outside my home because of the fear of having an anxiety attack. I've been feeling more depressed because I'm just feeling hopeless about not being able to find the best way to decrease my feelings of anxiety. I also feel guilty because it's affecting my relationship with my partner because I hesitate to go out, being scared of having an anxiety attack. I just wanted to share my story and hope someone understands.