Healing from Past Traumas and Negative Thought Patterns

I understand that. unfortunately not a lot of people are supportive of my situation other than my dad but I think it's important that you are around people who are supportive.

Something that helped me so much with eroding those patterns and dealing with those traumas has been psychedelics. I highly recommend doing THOROUGH research beforehand and getting a trip sitter if you want to do it at home so you are safe. Also do not do it if you have a personal or family history of psychosis, it can be a trigger for a psychotic break. A safer/legal option would be to do it in a therapeutic setting. Clinical psilocybin and MDMA (I do NOT recommend using MDMA outside of a clinical setting, you can OD) are insanely good treatments for PTSD. In a couple sessions patients can have the improvement previously only seen through years of therapy.