Feeling like everyone hates me

Honeslty I wish I could complain about my problems a little more. I never talk about them and it eats at you. I would personally rather someone talk to me about their problems then keep them to themselves.

Ouch, is this my brain writing this? I genuinely get this and it's sometimes so insufferable. Even hanging out with my friends for hours or everyone telling me how much they like me or like being friends or anything I just feel like they made a mistake but my friends are so nice, kind, and good they'll never say how much I am. I think what's kind of been helping me is actually having a friend who thinks similar to me like this too and I've never saw my friend as nothing but a light in my life! If they feel that way too even though to me they're practically the loveliest thing on earth, it gives you that outside looking in reflection. You can't genuinely know what other people think and it makes me sad when my friend thought I could think that so it made me think I shouldn't place those thoughts on my friend either. All you can do is take what they say at face value, with anxiety it's so hard not to overthink topped off with horrible self hatred or self criticism. I love my friends and I adore them so much I feel worse for doubting their feelings. I know that's not exactly the most healthy either and ofc there is exceptions but generally if you have good friends who are there when they can be and love your company, it's probably mutual how you feel about them is how they feel about you. It's hard to rethink this way since we are only in our heads but really just put yourself in an outside look if someone you liked thought this way too. What would you want to say to them? That's what you should apply to yourself as well. If this helps! This, again, is how I got somewhat better with being with friends without feeling so sickeningly guilty like I shouldn't be there. Maybe this will help you too?

I get what you are saying, but I promise that is not the case. I used to do it all the time. I thought everyone hated me and I was better off dead because no one loved me. Well, it took me a while to realize I thought other people thought of me that way because that’s what I thought of me. I hated myself and I didn’t love myself. Right now I think my parents think of me as a failure, but in actuality, I think I’m a failure and I’m always worried if I’ve failed or disappointed someone or something. The best way to try and work through these thoughts is to acknowledge them as your own and try and better them. For instance, I feel like a lazy piece of shit even though I work 2 jobs and most days get 8-12 hours because I won’t go home and do the chores around the house that need done. I feel lazy and I feel like I’m failing to do my household obligations. Well, I’ll either do just one chore instead of all of them (when I get in this mind frame I feel I have to do everything around the house) or I’ll tell myself “You’ve worked 10 hours today, it’s time you take a rest. You aren’t lazy because not many lazy people work the way you do.” Be kinder to yourself overall. All these things we all go through is very hard and the least we can do is be there for ourselves. I know it’s difficult when you criticize yourself so much, but just know that we are all strong people. It definitely doesn’t feel like it somedays, but we put up with a lot. I wish you love and healing with your journey!