Feeling Unwanted and Alone

I do feel this, but my girlfriend and friends and cousin are still there for me. I try to remember the way they have been there for me when I feel that way.

Depression is really good at trying to prove the negative experiences in our lives are the only way. It’s natural to be upset and feel rejected when there are actual instances of it in your life. Those aren’t your only experiences, though, and it’s not fair that our brains are more focused on the negative than the positive experiences. Some ways to combat these feelings, after you’ve sat with them and given them space to just exist, is to reach out for reassurance. I’ve had a couple friends recommended some ways to start a conversation about reassurance, which I’ve kind of paraphrased in different ways here: “Hey, I’m feeling low right now, and I just wanted to get reassurance that I’m not a horrible person, is that something you could do?” “My brain is telling me that I’m not valued or important right now, can you help me remember ways I am valued?” I’ve also seen people I follow on Twitter reach out for emotional support in a similar way. Something along the lines of what you’re feeling, and asking others to drop a comment sharing how they have been impacted in a positive way. Sometimes the hardest, but most important thing, is to ask the people in your life directly to give you that support. To remind you that you’re an important person, and that you add value by being here. It’s okay to take time to yourself, but remember that you can get reassurance for others when your brain cannot make it itself. Proud of you, friend, for sharing here.

I can't figure out how to say it right but what really got to me was a Tumblr post where someone told their friend that they were feeling the way you are, and the friend said something along the lines of "do you really think I'd do that?" It's easy to think negative self talk only affects you, but your friends are your friends because they like you. They have no obligation to spend time with you, and if they didn't want to they wouldn't. Thinking that they secretly hate you is not only a diss on yourself, but on them as well

Yes but maybe not because I'm stupid and horrible, more like because I'm really boring.