Stories
Privacy
Download
See Alike in...
Alike App
Browser
621d
I want to starve myself. I feel like if I have to look in the mirror and see myself one more time I’m gonna tear myself apart. I keep wanting to try diets and I’ve been obsessively looking into different options and learning about different body types and energy break down methods and I feel motivated to do it. I hate what I see so why wouldn’t I yk? But istg there is this block. Always. For everything. And idk if its adhd cause my counselor thinks i have that but I’m unmedicated or if its the simple act of being addicted to food or getting so bored I don’t care anymore. I’ve done fine maintaining my weight, but that isn’t my goal. I want it all gone. I know I’ll always feel a level of self conscious, but this makes it so obvious I ain’t a guy, and that if I am one I got a very feminine body. It tears me apart. And if I don’t make some sort of progress soon I feel like I’m gonna do something drastic.
0
2
Share
Eating Disorder
Gender Dysphoria
Restlessness and Agitation
Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
advertisement
619d
Hey! I’ve had an ED for 10yrs now and completely understand where you’re coming from! I don’t have gender dysphoria since I’m a cisgen female but due to grooming and s/a I’ve hated my body and curves. I want to just be so thin my chest disappears and guys look at me in disgust instead of something they can stick their dick in. I’m gay as well so it’s kinda weird where I hate boobs on me but am attracted to fem presenting people who stereotypically feminine. Idk I went to treatment once when I was 15. I couldn’t even get out of bed without the risk of passing out and my skin had turned grey, so my time was projected to be maybe a few months if I hadn’t gone. I was also a minor so I didn’t have a choice and now I’m 25, trying to come off my addiction to laxatives, and find a weight between where I can’t live my life and where I’m in a healthy weight range 😅 I know I’ll never recover and have never had any intentions to do so in a decade. I’m free to chat anytime whether you need support in recovery or want to learn damage control and continue on with the ED. Being forceful only taught me worse shit than exercising, fasting and very rarely purging back when this thing started so I won’t force anything cuz I don’t wanna make shit worse for you 💕
1
@PinkFairy I dont wanna yk embrace the ed but god knows how long it’ll be before it just don’t matter anymore. I also related to the boob thing boobs for the win
☝ This content is generated by our users and it is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Please consult with your physician before making any medical decision
Want to chat or share? Download the Alike app now and get complete access to Alike.health's unique features.
Instantly get answers to medical questions with our AI, built from the collective wisdom of our community facing similar experiences
Write your question here...
Download Alike for the full experience
Copy Link
Copied
Discover your Alikeness™ with people who are on the same journey, gain wisdom and get emotional relief in a secure & anonymous space.
4.7 Ratings
Scan code or click below download the app
Bupropion
night sweats
paranoid
Valium
sertraline
palpitations
Anxiety (Including GAD)
Depression
Alike health
Instantly get answers to medical questions with our AI, built from the collective wisdom of our community facing similar experiences
Related Questions