Halestorm719

55d

Sometimes after so much hard bad shit over the last 3 years I am to a point that I really struggle wanting to participate in society. TV and movies nothing interests me. Anything with violence or contention even Disney level stuff I struggle to handle. 😂 I find I can only handle rock music, classical, some metal, and podcasts about meditation or positive thinking. I always have this feeling that I am on trial all the time. Like the world is waiting to see me fuck up somehow. I just wish I could win the lottery and stay home all the time and never leave my house. The outside world is such a mess.
And that’s no way to live. But my trauma has me in a place where I struggle to want to engage in anything that is threatening in any way. Even if it’s a dumb movie that has nothing to do with me. Has anyone else had this problem? How did you get better?

Depression

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

Anxiety (Including GAD)

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  • Dad.of.Many

    55d

    I have gradually become borderline agoraphobic where I only feel safe in my home or in my truck. Crowds of any size freak me out because I always feel like I'm being judged for my weight or because I use handicap spaces and carts in stores. I always feel threatened when outside my zone. Have you tried art therapy? It has helped me a lot to sit whenever I feel that way and try to draw my feelings.

    • Halestorm719

      55d

      I will have to try that. I am a social guy and I love being with friends. It’s just single in my 40s has been hard. I have had a lot happen in my life and it’s hard to let a day go by and not just let life flow. I’m always afraid of the next big disaster

  • Dad.of.Many

    55d

    give it a try. Sometimes you can draw things your brain skips over when thinking. Don't look forward to the possible future. It hasn't been written yet. Try to center yourself in the here and now. If your mind starts worrying ground yourself. Once you find your breath, go through the following steps to help ground yourself: 1: Acknowledge FIVE things you see around you. ... 2: Acknowledge FOUR things you can touch around you. ... 3: Acknowledge THREE things you hear. ... 4: Acknowledge TWO things you can smell. ... 5: Acknowledge ONE thing you can taste. It helps!

  • Dad.of.Many

    55d

    I'm on most every night if you want to chat. I'm sick tonight, so I'm gonna turn in. Hope it helped! Goodnight! 😊

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