life's been hard. i (barely) finished school almost a year ago, i quit my job about a month ago. you would think having all the free time in the world would open up so many opportunities but instead i'm just getting worse. sleep schedule is shit, eating is shit, getting out of bed is shit. i have companions, i have family, but i just keep withdrawing because almost everyone either annoys me or i'm a burden on them. i can't think about a future, i feel like i'm genuinely too sick in the head to function in the real world. my moneys running out and i just wanna go out and buy some drugs...ive been clean since september 2020 with only 2 relapses since if that goes to show how bad it is. i'm at a loss. how am i supposed to live if i can't function in the outside world, or within the confines of my own head?