Missing that Genuine Connection

I understand! A lot of the time, I feel like I’ve used my mask to start relationships, so when I inevitably burn out, I seem like a totally different person. It sucks, because I want to have relationships that include the whole of me, but I’m also scared of both not being “enough” and/or being “too much”. I put those in quotes because they’re not really helpful ideas to have, but I know its still how I feel. Do you find that any type of relationship could meet this need for you? Or does it feel like something you would want a romantic partner for? Since exploring polyamory, and understanding how I look at relationships of all kinds, I recognize that I would like to have a variety of people to go to when I have a social need to be met. But actually using those tools to support myself is another story altogether.

Omg I miss late night talks so much. I have been avoiding binge dating, bc rn I just feel so icky about myself that I can't really get into anything without feeling like, oh this person is settling for me, so I gotta make myself better without another person first

sometimes i crave romantic relationships but then sometimes i’m very thankful i don’t have one because i don’t have enough time to do everything for myself and someone else. i feel like it would be unfair for me to be in a relationship when i haven’t yet found balance in my relationship with myself.

I know how that feels and it honestly sucks, I still haven't found someone myself but if you ever need to talk or want advice I'm here.